Two more Poem things: Pit of Despair, Love & Hate

I have a Collection of 8 Poem things I need to upload to here, but Here are two (2) little things I've written over the past few weeks while I was on holiday; most of them are around the same theme, I cant be arsed to explain them because my mood hasn't been very good for the past few weeks and the other day they sunk even more, leading me to write “Love & Hate” today. So here we go… Hold on tight, this is a very wild ride… More will be uploaded soon.

Pit of Despair

Sat alone, thinking and pondering.

Wondering what ifs? and buts,

thoughts of never ending dreams;

dreams of a life without pain.

But these thoughts and dreams are but them,

dreams and thoughts… nothing real.

I want and wish for something more

A life with you, only you.

No substitute will ever replace you,

my feelings real and my dreams for you,

knowing it cannot be only pushes me further,

further into the Pit of Despair

By Lewis Stockton

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Love & Hate

They always say there is a thin line between Love & Hate,

I never agreed with this until now.

One step can take you over this line;

one word, one action, one breath.

Why oh why did I listen to my heart,

nothing good ever came from my heart

so why would it start now?

Forever Alone and Forever Wandering,

I try to move on but all I do is fail.

The better things occur, the worse they are later.

So now I realise the truth I did not want to admit;

There really is a thin line between Love & Hate.

 

By Lewis Stockton

 

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New Dawn, Give you my Heart, Fight for the Lost & Gravestone.

Here are a few little things I wrote while I was on holiday and also at the beach. They may come from the heart or they may just be something I wrote, I’m not sure, I know one of them is from the heart but I will not say who it is about because I don’t like to point fingers. Anyway… Here they are.

New Dawn

I watch as night ends and the Sun rises,

my troubles of the night fade away.

The rising sun cleansing my soul of sin,

my thoughts of you never ending;

Never washed away in the shadow of the star.

The only problem with washing away the night

is a setting sun brings them forth again,

but these brief respites keep me going.

Thinking of you, all into the New Dawn.

By Lewis Stockton

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Give you my heart

It was only for a short time,

but I gave it my all.

I tried and pushed to make it work,

but it wasn't enough

I prayed that this would last forever,

but I was wrong.

You left me for him who you left for me,

was I nothing but a stepping stone?

I had hoped for something eternal,

but all come to an end.

I Gave you my Heart,

but you just gave me it back.

By Lewis Stockton

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Fight for the Lost

The skies were a light with fire,

our Angels fighting their Demons.

The Rumble of treads on the crushed bodies;

ever present in out ears.

My men are tired and my eyes start to close,

we cannot tire; Only the Dead can rest.

The 122nd are out there, holding the line,

so we can push forward; Searching.

We left them to die, some may yet live.

The Trap is sprung and we are caught,

War has reached us at last.

Now we fight to Survive;

Fighting for the Lost.

By Lewis Stockton

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Gravestone

Long lost to the world,

my bones turned to dust years before.

All that remains of me is lost in history,

family forgotten and friends long dead.

My valour and honour lost to time,

not even a name, just a number on a tally.

A Lump of stone the only inkling of a body;

the lettering long worn to the wind,

the stone half broken to time.

How many years has it been?

Since I fell on that field to the enemy of mine?

All that is left of me is a worn Gravestone,

nothing but a fragment of my soul;

long worn to the winds of time.

By Lewis Stockton

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Darkness & Last Breath of my Sins

*sigh* I had an entire blog post written out and it deleted, I guess this is a sign I should probably not post the second poem / ballad / thing… but I am going to do it anyway, I will do it. Instead of the huge paragraph I had explaining to the person who will know what the reference is, I will say just this.

Do not let it change anything, I wrote this because I was pouring my heart into these and it just flowed from by heart to my hand without my mind realising I had written it until it was on paper and I could not delete it. I don't want you to rush to anything because of this or feel bad for what happened or anything. I know you will feel something because I know you, but just don't let it change anything.

And now I will sit worrying until they see it, *sigh* why do I do this to myself…

Anyway… Here is the first of the two things I wrote; ‘Darkness’ is just a quick one I wrote and has no affiliation with the second one, this is just something that flowed out my head but had nothing to do with this situation. ‘Last Breath of my Sins’ Is the one you should be reading in reference to the top part

 

Darkness

It surrounds us and cloaks us,

hidden from their view. I watch on.

I watch you as you go by day after day,

living your life as mine drifts away.

One word barely leaves my mouth

before I regret ever speaking up.

The memory will never die and the fear never leaves,

I only want us together

but it will never be.

So the Darkness closes in

and I do nothing to stop it;

Why should I when there is nothing left

my life is nothing but an echo

in the Darkness of the world

By Lewis Stockton

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Last Breath of my Sins

Let me try and tell you this;

an Affirmation of my Sins,

A Law, a vow, an Oath to tell you my Sin.

Some would call this ‘Cute’ but I call it ‘Sin’,

A Sin that drives me insane, Every time I hear your name.

My sin, that I love you too much,

Loving you is a curse, A Love that cannot occur.

We are friends and friends should never be together like this,

I wish we could be together; more then what we are.

I cry when apart but I’m silent when together,

If only I could put his on my Blog (Which I am doing right now :S )

For you to read and see; but I cannot, fear engulfs me.

My Sins are a curse, but there is always a way.

I am always going to be your Puppy.

By Lewis Stockton

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Memory, Lost & Break my Fall

Here are three little things I have wrote during the weeks between my last post (Not the Review, but the last poem,) The Lost was inspired by the Firefly episode “Out of Gas”, while Memory and Break my Fall are both inspired by Battlestar Galactica.

Lost

The Engines were quiet
and the Power was drained.
Serenity lost; dying with its Captain.
Lost and Alone, he bleeds on the deck,
his family gone and his life slipping away,
His one true wish for another breath.
No one wants to die alone,
but everyone dies alone,
Here, there and everywhere;
People die alone,
because no one leaves Serenity.

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Memory

We Lived as one, working in Unity.
Until our world was torn by the Ravages of War
We had to leave our home and wander the Stars,
Hunted by our own creations
They are unrelenting; thirty three was our unlucky number.
Caprica was lost to nuclear fire,
Out only hope is a single Star;
A Battlestar to guide us to fabled lands.
Oh Terra of old waits for our return,
Galactica is our only hope.
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Break My Fall

The Stars shine in the dark of the sky

My Raptor burns like one of the Stars above

And I float helplessly in the void.

War rages all around yet I float alone.

My Comrades die while I limp on,

The Toasters kill our men and we bite back

But I am alone in the void.

I pray for all the things I will miss,

The People I love, miss and Pray for.

Only one I wish to See,

I want you to Break my Fall.

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