Darkness & Last Breath of my Sins

*sigh* I had an entire blog post written out and it deleted, I guess this is a sign I should probably not post the second poem / ballad / thing… but I am going to do it anyway, I will do it. Instead of the huge paragraph I had explaining to the person who will know what the reference is, I will say just this.

Do not let it change anything, I wrote this because I was pouring my heart into these and it just flowed from by heart to my hand without my mind realising I had written it until it was on paper and I could not delete it. I don't want you to rush to anything because of this or feel bad for what happened or anything. I know you will feel something because I know you, but just don't let it change anything.

And now I will sit worrying until they see it, *sigh* why do I do this to myself…

Anyway… Here is the first of the two things I wrote; ‘Darkness’ is just a quick one I wrote and has no affiliation with the second one, this is just something that flowed out my head but had nothing to do with this situation. ‘Last Breath of my Sins’ Is the one you should be reading in reference to the top part

 

Darkness

It surrounds us and cloaks us,

hidden from their view. I watch on.

I watch you as you go by day after day,

living your life as mine drifts away.

One word barely leaves my mouth

before I regret ever speaking up.

The memory will never die and the fear never leaves,

I only want us together

but it will never be.

So the Darkness closes in

and I do nothing to stop it;

Why should I when there is nothing left

my life is nothing but an echo

in the Darkness of the world

By Lewis Stockton

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Last Breath of my Sins

Let me try and tell you this;

an Affirmation of my Sins,

A Law, a vow, an Oath to tell you my Sin.

Some would call this ‘Cute’ but I call it ‘Sin’,

A Sin that drives me insane, Every time I hear your name.

My sin, that I love you too much,

Loving you is a curse, A Love that cannot occur.

We are friends and friends should never be together like this,

I wish we could be together; more then what we are.

I cry when apart but I’m silent when together,

If only I could put his on my Blog (Which I am doing right now :S )

For you to read and see; but I cannot, fear engulfs me.

My Sins are a curse, but there is always a way.

I am always going to be your Puppy.

By Lewis Stockton

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